when i witness anger...

what makes people upset?
what is a core reason that causes us to feel upset?
insecurity?
the feeling of not being enough
“i am angry that she does not appreciate me despite everything i did”
but why do we need that appreciation? why do we need that constant feedback?
because how else would i know that i am enough, that i am loved, that i am appreciated, that i am not being taken advantage of, that my loved ones are not being taken advantage of?
but how do i answer these questions to myself?
my own conversations with myself are compromised.
compromised by own long held assumptions
compromised by fears that have plagued me all my life
how do i know when i am speaking the truth to myself?
how do i know when i am lying?
i cannot judge by my gut feelings
my instincts are numbed from years of imprisonment
it is easier to live by rules.
rules that decide what is right and wrong
but the rules you want to apply to yourself, apply equally to you!
let us not labor under the delusion that we always follow the rules that we want others to follow!
some time later i realise…
love is always there
unconditional love
whether we admit it or not
being upset with “someone” only means that i am upset with myself.
the expression of anger is a plea for help, help to remind myself of my worth.
and we are all always on the hunt for ways to recognise our worth.


​veena